27th September 2009, 3.30 AM

Again... Hilary Jane's favourite hobby: writing blog posts for others. Enjoy (or at least try to... haha).

Disclaimer: What you read below is not the opinion of PENLERS. It is the opinion of HILARY JANE. (Hahaha! I'm bolding this in case people can't read this!)

27th September 2009
Location: Bane's house

I'm playing Supermario Car racing with Bane. Very fun yet childish. WII ROCKS! It was an awesome day today. Indeed. I went to my dearest Hilary Jane's church for her youth anniversary celebration! Fun only! She acted as a crazy witchcraft, she is good at acting! Awesome! Next, it was bbq time. Food was not tasty but it was lovable dinner because my hearty Hilary Jane cooked for us. BANE, BOBBY, JOWIE & QI MENG! AWESOME. I shall stop here because my phone sucks! I use my phone to type a post for my personal blog as a draft first :) Love you deep deep! <3

A Lifeless Ordinary

Song from the new Motion City Soundtrack record. Can't Wait!

19th September 2009, 01:59

This is what happens when you're bored at 2 in the morning with a bunch of friends and one of them decide to write a blog post on your behalf:

Disclaimer: What you read below is not the opinion of PENLERS. It is the opinion of HILARY JANE. (Hahaha! I'm bolding this in case people can't read this!)


19th September 2009, 01:59
Location: Sherlene's House
People: Bane, Bobby, Hilary Jane, Qi Ming, Sherlene's cousin

We're watching ORPHAN right now. It's damn thrilling and exciting. But I'm tired. Idiot myself. I don't allow Hilary to use my phone to type a draft for my blog. And I didn't tell her my secretive blog too. Am I cruel and mean towards her? Yes... I think so? Today we kept doing the <3> Hope that she will allow me to date her. Oh, 26th September 2009. Her Church youth anniversary. I wanna go! Cliff go! Kay, go. Time to stop! ;D love you deep deep people. Bye <3 <3 <3

Message From The Dead

Message from the late Heath Ledger via Modest Mouse's 'King Rat'. He wanted to tell people about whaling. Feels surreal to see one's creations after one's death. Wonder if this video will work... if people will stop whaling...

Nah... they won't.

Untitled 13/9 8:56PM

Are we all hiding behind a mask? Unwilling to show others our true feelings? I thought I knew and understood people but I realised I didn't. Not even a tiny bit.

I feel sick of myself now. Doubts are filling my mind. I don't think I even know myself anymore. What am I? What do I really want? What do I want to do with my life? I feel uncertain... I feel purposeless.

Sitting on the swing, I wished I could be on this swing forever. It feels reassuring and yet insecure at the same time. For once, I was totally alone. It felt calming yet lonesome at the same time. I plugged in to my iPod and immediately, I felt better. However, after awhile, the feelings came back.

This feeling within me... I loathe it, but at the same time, I'm... enjoying it. Am I sick in the head? I don't know.

I'm not hurt.
I don't need help. I don't need 'saving'. I don't need people to sympathize me.
I just need to be leave alone by myself.
I just need people to fuck off.